Dreams

I mean is it crazy, am I insane, are am I going insane,

I don't think so but neither does anybody that thinks that they're insane,

But let me explain myself first Maybe it'll make some sense

No one ever told me that falling in love with somebody could make you do unspeakable things, things that you would never do especially in your clear mind however it's true when you are in love with somebody you tend to do things that most people especially your closest friends would say you're crazy

But however I find myself making the bed as if you're about to come home from work I find myself watching TV shows and watching my face and actions to it because I feel like you can see me

Now I would never say that I talk to myself because that would be insane wouldn't it

I find myself speaking about you constantly it's almost as if someone pressed rewind and played again

In a lot of ways it makes me feel secure it makes me feel as if you're there that I'm not alone because nobody wants to be alone

I find myself listening to music And thinking of how I will performing on stage and if you were watching what would you be doing

I also think what the day will really be like when I see you again because I have so much hope but always "expect the worst" however that's just not me but I do find common sense within it to never give your hopes up but I have so much hope and faith that everything will go fine but sometimes luck for me isn't like

Lately I've been having dreams very vivid dreams

I find myself waking up in the morning feeling as if you're next to me

I wake up happy but only to roll over to see that you're not there anymore

But hopefully to be there soon

It would be by mean to say that my heart breaks every single time but even if it does it only tells me that I'm truly in love with you

Which means okay because I like to feel human it tells me that I'm alive and that I'm capable of loving somebody our that somebody is capable of making me feel this way because they love me just as much

Words cannot describe how thankful I am you have giving me back something that I thought that I lost along time ago something that I thought I would never get back something that most people only watch movies just sit back and think to themselves while I wish I could happen to me

Once I told you all that I am is yours

And that is very true my heart my mind my body my soul the words that come out of my mouth that you are reading they belong to you

Sometimes I feel myself becoming burdened with stress worrying concerns and sometimes it just happens out of the middle of nowhere

And that is okay to because I wanted to put myself in the situation to know tha because you are worthy of myself I just hope that I am worthy of you

Sometimes I fantasize about the possibility of you showing up on my doorstep

God wouldn't that be a surprise I really don't think I know what my reaction would technically be but I do know this I would be very happy

However I don't see that happening although I know you would try

I never think of myself as beautiful or intelligent or attractive until I met you

And for that I thank you in the bottom of my heart not very many women can say that nowadays

So I thank you for everything you have done the words that you say in the breast that you take to say it I hope I only live long enough to hear more of it in for me to take those breath

And say it back as well.