Abusive relationships

You know there comes a time in everybody's life, where something happens any changes that person for what reasons we do not know but only that person dies, it's up to that person to say why although they may never say or they may admit it but they'll never tell the full truth, but I will so this is my story I'll keep it short but it won't be sweet though so hold on buckle up and get ready for a ride,

When I was with somebody backed into thousand and 2013 I thought everything was great, I thought to myself this is everything that I've wanted I'm so happy I could never ask for anymore, but I was wrong, if there's anything I would tell anybody if the person that loves you or at least says that they do, if they ever hate you or call you names get out while you can I don't care what you're doing in that timing moment but leave because you won't regret it but see in my situation, I was going insane, the definition of being insane is kind of hoping for a different reaction every single time although you get the same reaction every time you're hoping for a different reaction, but you never get one so it causes you to act differently because you're in denial of the situation so when my relationship ended in 2015, I saw myself go into a good state of mind, I could go out with my friends I can do anything that I wanted to I could even go out of state I could talk to people that before I was not allowed to talk to but then I seen something else change within me,

Something scary and never thought that I would do it but I did,

I told myself along time ago I would never smoke pot her smoke cigarettes again but I ended up doing I told myself I would never become an alcoholic but I ended up doing that, why may ask this is the reason why,

Other we may sound like a stupid reason but it's the truth when Selena Gomez came out with a song that said the heart wants what it wants it's true,

My only reason for that is because when I was in Texas I realized to myself I'm running away from my problems I'm smoking and drinking to none of the issues but the problems were always there it may no difference how much I drink how much I smoked how much trash I talked about my ex even knowing most of it was true but in the back in my mind I knew to myself I felt horrible for saying those things only because knowing that they were true it's not how I wanted people to see him, I wanted people to see him the way that I saw him, someone that is loving caring and understanding passionate would go out of their way for anybody,

But if you made him mad it was not the best times

He left holes in my walls and more importantly a hole in my heart I will never forget him and I may always love him but I will never forget the things that he had done to me

So this is my advice to you if you're ever in a abusive relationship

Get out while you can because some are not as lucky